whose footprints are these?

I dreamt of...

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 07:09:08 GMT

I DREAMT OF GACKT LAST NIGHT. 8D

i dreamt that i was with this friend of mine, but i can't remember who. we were walking towards this room and i think we were late cos when i opened the door i quickly said "すみません！". xD

the room was very small, with only 1 small table inside. there were 4 people, my friend and i, shimin and GACKT-SAMA.
after i said sorry, GACKT said "こんばんは" and i quickly replied with a 90 degree bow. xD

then we were suddenly flipping through some...movie catalogue? i think.
all i remembered was that shimin kept talking to him. D:

ok, here's the amazing part of the dream.

GACKT-SAMA WASN'T WEARING HIS SHADES AND HE WAN'T EVEN WEARING CONTACT LENS!

i have no idea how my mind managed to draw out that image of him without shades and contacts, BUT I SAW HIS EYES. BLACK EYES. :D
i think he had some eyeliner on, but no contacts! <3

sadly, the only sentence i asked him was, "this page right? (the catalogue)" and he replied "yea". HAHAHA!

and then....my brother went out and i woke up. -_-

stupid spoiler.

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 06:48:37 GMT

started working yesterday at ion.
not too bad, the people there are fun. :)
however my new flats did kill my feet badly, now there're blisters everywhere. shit you, shoes.
come visit me yea? xD

my new phone's coming tomorrow, or so adeline says. i hope it's really gonna be there. i think i'll collect it by this week.
can't wait!

going to meet our NIE client tomorrow at orchard, everything will be fine..i think.
i guess we'll have to prepare questions to ask her..
after that i wanna go shopping. xD
maybe i'll buy a pair of boots at pullandbear, or maybe those awesome checkered heels......

i wonder when will our SIP pay come in?
i need that money, lol.

gotta go work at 6 later.

<---- please take the heart away

Sun, 01 Nov 2009 16:14:39 GMT

omg i am officially emo-ing. zz

ever since ガクトさん went back i was kinda lifeless.

but just when everything was going back to normal,

he had to go and update his blog without mentioning us at all. (ﾉω･､) ｳｩ･･･

can someone tell me what's the lowest level after "depressing"?

i know, even though he didn't blog about it doesn't mean that he forgot about us. it also doesn't mean that he doesn't like singapore (i don't like it here either. -_-).

but still... (;´д｀)

我的天啊。

just how bad can this get?

even platinum egoiste can't make me feel better now.

i haven't even e-mail him yet. WHAT DO I SAY?? *panics*

pullandbear is love

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 16:55:55 GMT

i got bored so i started browsing through pullandbear's clothing collection on their website.

now i realize i shouldn't have done that cos holy crap, i feel like buying so many things from them!

2 pairs of jeans...countless number of shirts...a cute ring...and a dress. (and not to mention those awesomely espensive boots at $299, but i guess they don't have it here.)

everything is rather cheap, especially the ring which costs only $11.90.

how am i supposed to go to japan at this rate?

*goes off to emo*

I'M HUNGRY.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 17:16:12 GMT

i am so awfully hungry right now.
my hunger level increased after i read miki's post on my wall regarding thai curry that i oh-so-love.
now i'm craving insanely for thai curry, tom yam and prawn aglio.

ARGH i can't wait to visit the thai restaurant ガクトさま recommended! then i can totally satisfy my stomach.

i shall go to sleep now so i can dream about eating them. eating pasta mania tomorrow(for prawn aglio)! :D

おやすみなさい。

what if..?! 8D

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 11:01:37 GMT

after vique said that GACKT should keep the venue of his next event here a secret too so that we'd have to search for it, i suddenly thought, hey! maybe GACKT made the event private because he wanted the local fans to have fun! we DID had a crazy time searching for clues and venus didn't we? sure, there were depressing times, but i cannot deny the fact that everything was really FUN. i loved the thrill! 8D

i've also made so many new friends this past week all because he kept the event a secret!

imagine, GACKT kept it private but not TOO private, because we had so many hints in the end. the airport meeting was no exception too. he could have just not tell the lucky girl when he was gonna leave even though she asked. :D

it would be so sweet of him if what i thought was true. ♥

i think i'm crazy but i feel so happy now. LOL! ! xD

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 13:17:31 GMT

THIS IS FREAKIN DEPRESSING.

He was there, we were there, but we didn't see him.

...

GACKT +_+

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 16:55:44 GMT

when all seems to be hopeless...A FLICKER OF LIGHT APPEARED AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

went loitering around orchard with Belle and her mom whole afternoon but saw no sign of Gackt. :(

but then.........it wasn't such a bad day in the end. heh. ^^
i really really hope i can get to see him. sigh..

anyways i'm gonna pick up my new phone tomorrow, i hope the guy wasn't lying when he said it was here already!

GACKT <3

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 14:54:41 GMT

I AM GOING TO ~~STALK~~ LOOK FOR GACKT TOMORROW WITH ZUTU AND OTHER LJ FANS. EVERYBODY WISH US LUCK!

I think i'll faint if i can even see him for 3 seconds. i'll melt on the spot if he looks at me, and i'll -insert 100 ways to die- if he talks to me and shakes my hand.

OH PLEASE LET ME SEE HIM. PLEASE OH PLEASE.

*goes crazy*

i don't think i will fall asleep tonight.

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 04:36:42 GMT

i feel so betrayed. zzz

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 14:45:41 GMT

ooooo digimon is driving me mad!

first i get a mega seadramon with a virused garurumon, but i didn't like the virus there so i decided to restart.
then, even though i trained it the same way it didn't digivolve! is the game tryin' ta tell me that i'm supposed to let him poop on the ground before i get my mega seadramon? T.T
絶対に認めませんよ！！ pfff..

c'monnnn, MEGA SEADRAMON, I CHOOSE YOU!

*******

ONE DAY LEFT. *sparkles*
tomorrow's gonna be such an amazing day. i'll be meeting my mom after work to go shopping. i hope she gets me something too. xD

corrupted files stink!

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:37:57 GMT

yea babe, a new layout! :D
sorry if it's a little hard to read though.

i'm currently very much addicted to digimon world - yes, that old old game made for the very first generation of the sony playstation. kenneth's also playing it too and he's like the walking walkthrough of the game! even keith, who doesn't play, knows a lot of things about it. xD
the digimon brothers huh? i'm currently aiming to get a skullgreymon, but i don't think it's possible in any way. *sweat drop*

anyway, 2 MORE DAYS LEFT. oh goodness, please help me survive these 2 days without anything bad happening. hopefully we'll get a b grade for the internship and thomas will treat us dinner on monday. HAHA.

auditionsea is being such a pain in the ass because the installer seems to be corrupted. whenever i install it, i get everything except for all the songs. yep you read that right, no songs. aren't songs like, the most important part of audition? i wonder how'd they screw that up. anyway i guess i'll be taking the missing files from keith on sunday, but thats 3 days away!
and i was still hoping i could play it today. :(

oh well...at least the world isn't ending...yet.

random crazy things stored within a tiny space in my brain

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 05:59:41 GMT

Finally the week is ending. That means there's only 5 more days left of torture and hell! *throws confetti* :D:D:D:D

Also, I've actually started saving up for my Japan trip in 2011. *dances around*
can't wait, can't wait! Oh boy i do hope i'll have enough by then, i'll need around 6-7k?
currently i only have like, 1/14 of that amount. :(
hahaha seems so impossible right. D:

went to look for a job at starbucks with miss yu yesterday night, but they told me they only need long-term part-timers. like, 1-2 years? wth, that's a freakin long time! But then again, it's better than nothing right? I might actually consider applying for it.
according to boon, tcc only pays 4.50/h. i can't believe it, their coffee is almost double the price of starbucks' but yet their pay is lower? -_-

i think miss yu and friends are gonna have dinner together later but i'm not going. firstly because i already told my mom i'm eating at home when she asked this morning, and secondly, i have to save money. D:
Every teeny-weeny bit of money counts.

tomorrow will be the day of my uncle's wedding, and i can't wait. however it's not a wedding dinner, it's a wedding lunch. kinda disappointing yea? i hope there'll still be shark's fin and things like that. it's been a long time since i've attended a wedding, wonder whose will i attend next?

michelle?
rebecca?
shimin?
keith? （はやく！）

...or maybe my brother. -_-

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 05:58:49 GMT

i'm reaching my limit.

...

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 17:55:49 GMT

those were the happiest days,
carefree and light-hearted.
we could talk for hours,
time spent together never wasted.

was that love?

i smile whenever i see you,
and you always make me laugh.
although you can be a little mean sometimes,
you're never too rude or rough.

is this love?

recently you've changed,
not who you used to be.
puffing away engulfed in smoke,
pretending that you didn't see me.

can i love you?

i used to think i know you well,
but now i'm beginning to doubt so.
seeing things that disappoint me,
the images in my head will never go.

i will still love you.

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 16:42:12 GMT

ほしいほしいほしいほしいほしい (i want)

なりたいなりたいなりたいなりたいなりたい (i want to be)

行きたい行きたい行きたい行きたい行きたい (i want to go)

I'm so self-centered.

Orthros no Inu

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 16:49:01 GMT

after some rather amusing posts about work and so on (images courtesy of shimin), here's some of my eye candy. :D

滝沢秀明

this is the smile that killed me so many times over ever since i first saw him when he was 15.

"Beware of my God-hand!"
he's laughing like a cheeky kid!

my very adorkable eye candy. ♥

ARGH

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 16:10:42 GMT

it's 12am and i'm still blogging. i'm gonna die tomorrow. x_x

i want my pay! i seriously want to cut my hair this saturday dammit. why can't thomas just give it to us? it's just $440, he doesn't even have to calculate! he'd better give it by this week, or else...

ok, even if he doesn't i can't do anything. zzz

cbk is getting on my nerves everyday. is that his new hobby? maybe he finds it thrilling, other than listening to his dear shanshan sha-jiaoing to him. the day thomas and him take leave together is the day we'll celebrate.

AHHHH I DON'T WANNA CALL CLIENTS ANYMORE.

i'm going mad.

money money money

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 15:19:42 GMT

since shimin listed hers out, i shall list mine.

- pull & bear blouse
- shoes
- new macbook
- cambodia trip w/ church
- taiwan trip w/ class buddies
- japan trip w/ church gang
- toni & guy hairdressing course
- japanese lesson at cambridge
- japanese language proficiency test (JLPT)
- all the other tiny glittering shiny accessories

if the sky drops a million, must share with me ok shimin. :(
my list is like longer. xD

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 13:46:00 GMT

hoho...

HOHOHOHOHOHO....

are your eyes going @@ yet?

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 13:20:07 GMT

i got my hair curled today!

nice? no?

:D:D:D:D:D

Fri, 24 Jul 2009 16:20:58 GMT

LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA

ME ISH HAPPYZ.

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 05:30:58 GMT

couldn't really sleep well last night cos my mom said she was feeling feverish. things aren't usually good when she gets sick because she'd get so sick, it's scary. it always feels like she's dying when she's sick.

was kinda worried and all, and i thought, what if God really wants to take her away?
when the time comes, i think i'd just breakdown and die. my mom is my bestest best friend ever, and i think i'll not be able to take her death. the fear of her death is always with me ever since i was young. surprising to say, she told me once that my brother used to cry at night when he was younger because he didn't want her to die.

death is scary, not to oneself, but to the others around him/her.

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 13:37:35 GMT

ok so here's the plan:

2010 - aof 4, taiwan trip

after that hopefully i'll work for a while...

2011 - TRIP TO JAPAN. ZOMG I MUST GO FOR THIS ONE.

after that, i'll work work work! ..for a wihile.

20?? - enroll in toni&guy hairdressing academy. +_+ it's 13k for a 8-month course. oh please let me have enough money by then. -_-

and then...i'll probably work in some salon for a while before finally...GOING TO JAPAN. woohoo!
i have no idea when though. i hope it's not when i'm 40, i don't wanna waste my youth here.

shokudo!

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 12:29:18 GMT

went to eat at shokudo today! 8D
yummy yum yum.

check out shimin's happy expression - so happy to eat mushrooms? :x

michelle's bacon pasta with a delicious looking egg.

lindy's salmon pasta.

shimin's mushroom pasta!

and my uber-delicious spicy clam pasta.

iced milk macha float. +_+

while the food was good, the price was D:
saw some really cute badges, but each costs $6! that's so totally daytime robbery.

sigh..

...and there's tain presentation tomorrow. :(
school sucks!