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i was reading the blogs of my friends and it suddenly struck me that my life hasn't been moving along at all.

no improvements, no accomplishments, no changes.

i can't even save some money even though i've been saying that i want to for the past year.
i've stopped buying so many clothes/accessories, but is starting to go on a movie spree. i just can't resist!

i wonder if i'm gonna stay like this forever.



ok, i know i can't.

DOTA, DOTA AND MORE DOTA.

that's what i've been doing since the start of mp.
everyday is awesome and i'm totally enjoying myself at school.

that got me thinking, when will this stop? because i'm having so much fun now, i don't even feel like going home sometimes. is that bad? xD

oh well, so now i'm spending lesser and lesser time at home because i'm also working. reaching back at around 11 plus to 12 has already become a norm.

gonna watch 2012, hopefully it'll be as good as everyone says!

this post is so disorganized and random but i don't care cos i'm really sleepy.

good night everyone. :D

I DREAMT OF GACKT LAST NIGHT. 8D

i dreamt that i was with this friend of mine, but i can't remember who. we were walking towards this room and i think we were late cos when i opened the door i quickly said "すみません！". xD

the room was very small, with only 1 small table inside. there were 4 people, my friend and i, shimin and GACKT-SAMA.
after i said sorry, GACKT said "こんばんは" and i quickly replied with a 90 degree bow. xD

then we were suddenly flipping through some...movie catalogue? i think.
all i remembered was that shimin kept talking to him. D:

ok, here's the amazing part of the dream.

GACKT-SAMA WASN'T WEARING HIS SHADES AND HE WAN'T EVEN WEARING CONTACT LENS!

i have no idea how my mind managed to draw out that image of him without shades and contacts, BUT I SAW HIS EYES. BLACK EYES. :D
i think he had some eyeliner on, but no contacts! <3

sadly, the only sentence i asked him was, "this page right? (the catalogue)" and he replied "yea". HAHAHA!


and then....my brother went out and i woke up. -_-

stupid spoiler.

started working yesterday at ion.
not too bad, the people there are fun. :)
however my new flats did kill my feet badly, now there're blisters everywhere. shit you, shoes.
come visit me yea? xD

my new phone's coming tomorrow, or so adeline says. i hope it's really gonna be there. i think i'll collect it by this week.
can't wait!

going to meet our NIE client tomorrow at orchard, everything will be fine..i think.
i guess we'll have to prepare questions to ask her..
after that i wanna go shopping. xD
maybe i'll buy a pair of boots at pullandbear, or maybe those awesome checkered heels......

i wonder when will our SIP pay come in?
i need that money, lol.

gotta go work at 6 later.

omg i am officially emo-ing. zz

ever since ガクトさん went back i was kinda lifeless.

but just when everything was going back to normal,

he had to go and update his blog without mentioning us at all. (ﾉω･､) ｳｩ･･･

can someone tell me what's the lowest level after "depressing"?

i know, even though he didn't blog about it doesn't mean that he forgot about us. it also doesn't mean that he doesn't like singapore (i don't like it here either. -_-).

but still... (;´д｀)


我的天啊。

just how bad can this get?

even platinum egoiste can't make me feel better now.

i haven't even e-mail him yet. WHAT DO I SAY?? *panics*

i got bored so i started browsing through pullandbear's clothing collection on their website.

now i realize i shouldn't have done that cos holy crap, i feel like buying so many things from them!

2 pairs of jeans...countless number of shirts...a cute ring...and a dress. (and not to mention those awesomely espensive boots at $299, but i guess they don't have it here.)

everything is rather cheap, especially the ring which costs only $11.90. 

how am i supposed to go to japan at this rate?


*goes off to emo*

i am so awfully hungry right now.
my hunger level increased after i read miki's post on my wall regarding thai curry that i oh-so-love.
now i'm craving insanely for thai curry, tom yam and prawn aglio.

ARGH i can't wait to visit the thai restaurant ガクトさま recommended! then i can totally satisfy my stomach.

i shall go to sleep now so i can dream about eating them. eating pasta mania tomorrow(for prawn aglio)! :D 

おやすみなさい。

after vique said that GACKT should keep the venue of his next event here a secret too so that we'd have to search for it, i suddenly thought, hey! maybe GACKT made the event private because he wanted the local fans to have fun! we DID had a crazy time searching for clues and venus didn't we? sure, there were depressing times, but i cannot deny the fact that everything was really FUN. i loved the thrill! 8D

i've also made so many new friends this past week all because he kept the event a secret!

imagine, GACKT kept it private but not TOO private, because we had so many hints in the end. the airport meeting was no exception too. he could have just not tell the lucky girl when he was gonna leave even though she asked. :D

it would be so sweet of him if what i thought was true. ♥

i think i'm crazy but i feel so happy now. LOL! ! xD

 when all seems to be hopeless...A FLICKER OF LIGHT APPEARED AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

went loitering around orchard with Belle and her mom whole afternoon but saw no sign of Gackt. :(




but then.........it wasn't such a bad day in the end. heh. ^^
i really really hope i can get to see him. sigh..



anyways i'm gonna pick up my new phone tomorrow, i hope the guy wasn't lying when he said it was here already!

 I AM GOING TO STALK LOOK FOR GACKT TOMORROW WITH ZUTU AND OTHER LJ FANS. EVERYBODY WISH US LUCK!







I think i'll faint if i can even see him for 3 seconds. i'll melt on the spot if he looks at me, and i'll -insert 100 ways to die- if he talks to me and shakes my hand.




OH PLEASE LET ME SEE HIM. PLEASE OH PLEASE.

*goes crazy*

i don't think i will fall asleep tonight.

 i feel so betrayed. zzz

 ooooo digimon is driving me mad!

first i get a mega seadramon with a virused garurumon, but i didn't like the virus there so i decided to restart.
then, even though i trained it the same way it didn't digivolve! is the game tryin' ta tell me that i'm supposed to let him poop on the ground before i get my mega seadramon? T.T
絶対に認めませんよ！！ pfff..

c'monnnn, MEGA SEADRAMON, I CHOOSE YOU!


*******


ONE DAY LEFT. *sparkles*
tomorrow's gonna be such an amazing day. i'll be meeting my mom after work to go shopping. i hope she gets me something too. xD

 yea babe, a new layout! :D
sorry if it's a little hard to read though.

i'm currently very much addicted to digimon world - yes, that old old game made for the very first generation of the sony playstation. kenneth's also playing it too and he's like the walking walkthrough of the game! even keith, who doesn't play, knows a lot of things about it. xD
the digimon brothers huh? i'm currently aiming to get a skullgreymon, but i don't think it's possible in any way. *sweat drop*

anyway, 2 MORE DAYS LEFT. oh goodness, please help me survive these 2 days without anything bad happening. hopefully we'll get a b grade for the internship and thomas will treat us dinner on monday. HAHA.

auditionsea is being such a pain in the ass because the installer seems to be corrupted. whenever i install it, i get everything except for all the songs. yep you read that right, no songs. aren't songs like, the most important part of audition? i wonder how'd they screw that up. anyway i guess i'll be taking the missing files from keith on sunday, but thats 3 days away!
and i was still hoping i could play it today. :(

oh well...at least the world isn't ending...yet.

Finally the week is ending. That means there's only 5 more days left of torture and hell! *throws confetti*  :D:D:D:D

Also, I've actually started saving up for my Japan trip in 2011. *dances around*
can't wait, can't wait! Oh boy i do hope i'll have enough by then, i'll need around 6-7k? 
currently i only have like, 1/14 of that amount. :(
hahaha seems so impossible right. D:

went to look for a job at starbucks with miss yu yesterday night, but they told me they only need long-term part-timers. like, 1-2 years? wth, that's a freakin long time! But then again, it's better than nothing right? I might actually consider applying for it.
according to boon, tcc only pays 4.50/h. i can't believe it, their coffee is almost double the price of starbucks' but yet their pay is lower? -_-

i think miss yu and friends are gonna have dinner together later but i'm not going. firstly because i already told my mom i'm eating at home when she asked this morning, and secondly, i have to save money. D:
Every teeny-weeny bit of money counts.

tomorrow will be the day of my uncle's wedding, and i can't wait. however it's not a wedding dinner, it's a wedding lunch. kinda disappointing yea? i hope there'll still be shark's fin and things like that. it's been a long time since i've attended a wedding, wonder whose will i attend next?

michelle?
rebecca?
shimin? 
keith? （はやく！）



...or maybe my brother. -_-

 i'm reaching my limit.

those were the happiest days,
carefree and light-hearted.
we could talk for hours,
time spent together never wasted.

was that love?

i smile whenever i see you,
and you always make me laugh.
although you can be a little mean sometimes,
you're never too rude or rough.

is this love?

recently you've changed,
not who you used to be.
puffing away engulfed in smoke,
pretending that you didn't see me.

can i love you?

i used to think i know you well,
but now i'm beginning to doubt so.
seeing things that disappoint me,
the images in my head will never go.

i will still love you.

 ほしいほしいほしいほしいほしい (i want)

なりたいなりたいなりたいなりたいなりたい (i want to be)

行きたい行きたい行きたい行きたい行きたい (i want to go)



I'm so self-centered.

my very adorkable eye candy. ♥